I wish I had more time to record my thoughts about this. But I don't. This is a song title post, by the way. If you're anything like my mom, grab a tissue.
But the gist is this: Lynnaea starts kinder in the Fall. And my heart is breaking just a bit already. Especially when I really stop and think about it. Today I started envisioning dropping her off at her first day and walking away. Hoping she won't be too afraid. Hoping she will find friends. Hoping she will be a friend. I started having emotions well up inside of me just thinking about it.
Was it really already so long ago that she was the same size and age as Katherine?
I am trying to be the best mom I can be. I want to be the kind of mom my sweet Lynnaea deserves. Some days it is very, very hard. But I love her fiercely and I know I will miss her so very much when she isn't here all day. She's my helper, really, in these crazy days of 3 children. Sometimes I don't fully realize just how much of a help she has been these past 3 months since Katherine has joined our family. But every once in a while, I'm given the opportunity to see how much she has helped me -- and to realize just how much she has grown.
She currently loves all things unicorns. So Saturday, when we went on our mommy-Lynnaea date (trying to do this once a month with both bigger kids now that Katherine has arrived), I bought her the unicorn lollipop, but she bought herself the stuffed unicorn with her own money.
How grateful I am for my precious girl.
